HELP!!!!

Okay...I need your opinions because I am having a "mid life crisis" so to speak... and have been changing my hair color every other month but I am not in LOVE with anything yet. I have an appointment to get my hair stripped and then put a nice golden blonde tint to it but it will probably end up being very light. I am nervous. A couple months ago I went a dark auburn color that isn't bad I just don't think it does the best for me. So please let me know what you think because I value my friends opinions very much. I am to wishy washy to make this decision on my own. So PLEASE be honest in your opinion. THANK YOU! OH by the way...if you would like Christmas card...please leave me your address and I will be sure to get you one.

Santaphobia
An abnormal, persistent fear of Father Christmas

Just a reminder of last years Santa visit. It didn't turn out so well.

And this year...still scared to death of Santa


This isn't the greatest picture because you can't see Santa...but I think you tell just by her face that she really did not want to go see Santa..Maybe someday we will get a decent picture.

MY VERY OWN LITTLE MERMAID

Hannah LOVES The Little Mermaid. She Loves all the songs and loves to belt them out whenever she hears them. She has got quite the voice and one of these days I will have to record the moves that go with it. I love the free entertainment she provides for me.
(There are three different parts to this video, my camera only takes 1 minute videos so this will have to do I guess)

Make a Smilebox photobook

Just a little updating!

We have had fun these past couple of months and to tell you everything we have done would take FOREVER so here are a few of pictures of a couple of our fun events. Most of them are of Hannah. Sorry...we like her a little to much and so does the camera.

I love this picture because it completely described our Hannah. She has to have everything in the right place and she loves patterns. I find these little rows of anything and everything lined up all over our house. I think it is so funny.



Hannah with straight hair.It turned out pretty good I think





She had a major wedgie one night and was showing it off. She likes her booty these days and she knows how to shake that thing.





Another hair picture. I decided to try rag curls on Hannah one day...they turned out a little crazy.



The final product.



This was Hannah cute hairdo and outfit the day after Halloween. I thought she looked adorable.



Hannah and her cousin Kaden. He was the cutest little giraffe I have ever seen and Hannah was a "Butterfly Fairy" from the Barbie Mariposa movie.



Blowing Kisses!



I love love love this picture. Such a cute little smile dont you think?!!



She was not very happy with us for making her go when she was tired. She just wanted her daddy.



Shiloh is now the Elders Quorum President and they had a party a little over a month ago, it was really fun. We shot guns and had a great dutch oven dinner.



I grew a garden this summer and everything pretty much died BUT I did grow some pretty delicious carrots. I am proud.



We went camping this fall up at Scout Mountain and it was really fun. It was just Shiloh, Hannah and I and we didn't really do much. We had dinner, roasted marshmallows and then crawled into our tent and played a fun game of scrabble. I think I won :) We got up the next morning and took a little hike/walk. It was one of those wonderfully simple moments. I love those.



I hope everyone had a great Thanksgiving. We had a blast. It is always fun to just get together with our families and talk. I love the holidays. It is nice to reflect on the past year and the accomplishments we have made and all the many things we have been blessed with. We are so grateful for wonderful families who take care of us. I am grateful for an incredible husband who is willing to go above and beyond to make our lives wonderful. I am grateful for a daughter who loves me. She is so sweet and loves to be a girl. I never had sisters so to have someone love to do makeup with me and play dress up and to play with my hair...that is priceless. I LOVE IT! Even though we don't have a house yet...I am grateful that we have a wonderful "shed" that we like to call our home. It is our shelter from the rest of the world. We spend a lot of time at home and we love it. Anyways, I hope we can all count our many blessings, if you do I am sure you will find you have been blessed beyond measure and have much to be grateful for this Holiday season.

Heavenly Birthday

A year ago on this day I gave birth to a Beautiful and PERFECT little boy. I wasn't sure if I should post anything today, it is a really personal day, but I have learned so much this past year that I couldn't pass up the opportunity to talk about a very special person. Cameron was our first little boy and we couldn't have been more excited to have him. I couldn't understand completely why things worked out the way they did and to be honest I still don't know. But I do know that he was chosen to come to our family for a reason. Maybe we could handle it better or needed that test of our faith...who knows. He definitely has made our family stronger and we rely on the Lord SOOOO much more. Anyways, little did I know that while we were struggling with the loss of our boy that another wonderful woman named Becky was going through the same thing. These little boys were needed that day I guess. Becky you have been in my thoughts and prayers constantly and I am so grateful for your little words of encouragement, they have gotten me through so many of the hard times.I truly believe that these little boys and girls that come to this world and leave so quickly are part of a great army in Heaven. I am sure we have all noticed how corrupt and evil this world is becoming. Living in Idaho, I am sheltered from a lot but I am not blind, I can see very clearly the warning signs of our Heavenly Father. I am not, and have never, thought of our Cam as a little baby...I think of a strong stripling warrior working hard to prepare us and help us get back to our Father in Heaven. So for everyone who has lost anyone, especially those have lost a baby, They may have gone to soon for our liking, but we will see them again someday, and we should be so proud of the hard work they are putting forth in Heaven. Sorry this is so mushy, I always seem to post these and I am sorry if they are a little depressing, but I hope nobody thinks that. Megs, I am so sorry that you had to go through this trying time but I think your little "bean":) and Cameron are joining forces to fight against evil. I promise the next post will be full of pictures and fun things.

Just Rambling, A LOT

I think that life is starting to catch up with me. The reality of growing up is something that I put on the back burner because I am still very young but believe it or not we are growing up, and I can't avoid it. With Shiloh graduated we are sort of forced to start a new chapter in our lives. I am very grateful that he is finished but then the burden of trying to figure out what to do hits pretty hard. As for me, I can't be anything but grateful for the blessing of my wonderful family, but I can't help but notice a huge void in our lives. I am constantly looking around for that 4th person in our family. I love it, but hate it so much. I get a little nervous for my sons first birthday. It tears me apart not being able to know him, but I absolutely love the fact that I KNOW I will get to see him someday and I will have eternity to get to see him. Although we don't get to have him here physically I feel him in my life constantly. In fact, last night when we were praying, I prayed that Cameron might be a little guardian angel over Hannah and just help her to know that he is there and he loves her. I never thought of that before, He loves his sister and I know she knows him to an extent. Then it hit me, if he loves his sister he has got to love his mommy and daddy. It was absolutely overwhelming and I just bawled. Anyways,sorry for the rambling this tends to be my other journal. I just have been having one of those months...you know...those emotionally months, I am sure we have all had them. It is also a very grateful month. Even though life isn't going the way we planned, I think both Shiloh and I have felt the comfort and love of our Heavenly Father so strongly. On a side note, I have a cute daughter. She is so sweet and very mothering. As we speak she noticed that I was crying and came up on the couch, wiped my tears and because of my sniffling, of course checked for boogies in momma's nose. (She copies me way to much) What a blessing. I am pretty sure that is my other melt down lately, my baby is growing up and is definitely turning into a toddler, 2 going on 12. Well we have had a great month so I will post some pictures of of adventures soon. Again, sorry for the rambling, but if you got this far, THANKS FOR LISTENING!

Who says you can't potty train on the go!!!